Confession

June 6, 2003 - 3:22 pm 4 Comments

I’ve been reluctant to post this since I’ve had bad experiences with coming out with it too soon in the past. It’s sort of like when you’re pregnant, and you don’t want to tell anyone until after your first trimester.

I started a diet last Friday. I have an awful lot of weight to lose. Back aroun 1995 or 1996, I took Depo-Provera shots for a year. Every time I got a shot, I gained 20 pounds. After the year was over, I weighed 80 pounds more. I’ve tried Jenny Craig (gained weight!), Atkins (stayed the same), Weigh of Life (stayed the same), plain old exercise (worked well until the whole wound thing happened), and never been really pleased with my results.

Now I’m drastically restricting my calories to 1000-1200 a day, with the help of a medication called Phentermine. It was one half of the dreaded Phen/Fen combo, but not the one that people had problems with. Basically, it’s like a high dose of Sudafed. Distressingly it has the same major side effect on me that Sudafed does – boy does my scalp itch and tingle.

Anyway, the decision came when I realized that I couldn’t get health insurance. I’m going to have to apply to the Texas Risk Pool, who isn’t allowed to turn anyone down. People with major medical problems are insured via the Risk Pool, like diabetes, AIDS, kids with Downs syndrome. Those people can’t change their medical conditions, but I can. So I decided to do whatever it takes to lose some weight.

The cutback on calories has been tough. I’m eating something like one third of what I’m used to, and I’m a little grouchy, a little spacey. I’m getting more used to it, and yesterday I went to the grocery story and bought a buttload of stuff that I can eat. I draw the line at skim milk or fat free mayo. Ok, so I did get Brummel and Brown spread (it’s not bad) and fat free sour cream (ditto), but I can’t deal with fat free mayo. I’d rather spend my calories on small portions of good food than big portions of crap. Yesterday I tried taking a can of tunafish, putting some teriyaki sauce on it, then eating it on a white cheddar rice cake. If you were thinking about doing this, I would advise against it. Cat food.

Anyway, I revived my other blog, Fitter. Happier. More Productive. and have been posting my calorie counts over there. I’ll be posting some other stuff to it and updating the layout, too. If you’re interested in following along with the diet stuff, that’s great, if not, that’s great too.

Oh, the weight loss for the last 7 days? 7 pounds. I’m sure a lot is water weight, but it’s nice to see results on the scale.

4 Responses to “Confession”

  1. JenBen Says:

    WOW! That’s not many calories! Are you taking vitamins too? BTW, I found that 7 lbs you lost while I was on vaca.

    Go for it but make sure you stay healthy!

  2. michigan Says:

    don’t forget to drink lots of water (yeah, because i’m the authority on doing that). i’ve heard from people who were trying to lose a lot of weight that drinking the full 64 oz (think one two-liter) per day really helped their metabolism. and it’s also supposedly good for making your skin clearer as a bonus? i haven’t seen that though even when i do drink it… maybe my skin just sucks.

    anyway, i will keep you in my good karma vibes and stuff, i can’t imagine how hard it must be to restrict what you eat because i’ve never done it. as evidenced by the extra 50 pounds i’m carrying around.

    after the baby, i will hopefully join you on the dietary bandwagon!

    xoxo
    m

  3. pie Says:

    Congrats! That’s excellent… =)

  4. Raspil Says:

    One word: Pilates. Yes, it really works. And anyone who can drink 64 ounces of water a day doesn’t have a job, unless they get paid to be in the bathroom all day.