June 14, 2003 - 5:33 pm 1 Comment

I’m in a very quiet mood. The sort of mood that’s masking a very bitchy mood. Where I know that if I’m not quiet, I will end up being mean. The problem is that with 2 kids and a husband, it’s pretty impossible to be as quiet as I would like to be. If I lived alone, this weekend would be one where I would lock myself in the house, unplug the phones, and read books for 2 days, perhaps remembering to eat some chocolate occasionally. And sleep for 14 hours at a time.

Instead I have to corral kids and pets (the gd dog ate all the bread again) and husband and keep an iron grip on my hormonal rage tight enough so that I don’t transfigure into a raging hairy red-eyed slobbering spitting beast when I’m asked, for the 30th time that day, why I’m so quiet and what the matter is.

Sometimes I realize what it is that makes people put their fists through the wall. The scary part is that it’s hard to control. It’s not like I can stop the hormone rush, and the hormones make me feel like I’m… not me. Normally I’m the kind of person who fusses at other people for making mountains out of molehills. Life’s too damned short. I hate feeling like this. My stomach hurts. Just a couple more days…

One Response to “Moody”

  1. michelle Says:

    I know what you mean about the hormonal rage. I feel like that sometimes too. I am trying to enjoy what quiet time I have left before the baby comes.