Naive
December 16, 2003 - 3:41 am
Am I really so naive because I want my adult Christmases to have the same magic that my childhood ones had? Am I the only person in the world who doesn’t want to get bitchy during the holidays? Is there something wrong with liking It’s a Wonderful Life? Am I weak because dealing with other peoples’ crappy attitudes is starting to tarnish the joy I have during this time of the year?
December 16th, 2003 at 12:08 pm
I can understand where you’re coming from. I always used to enjoy the holidays as a child and also as an adult (except for the exasperating problem of lacking money for gifts). But since my second marriage and my wife’s depression over her deceased parents, deceased relatives, her grown sons and even missing her former in-laws, it’s gotten to be a majorly depressing time of the year. She does a passive-aggressive criticism of my family and how we all get together at the same houses year after year, with the same people. Hell, I’ve done this since I was 5 years old and I’m over 40 now. I want to enjoy the holidays (as much as I say bah-humbug), but I’m almost afraid of showing any overt or extra “holiday” happiness for fear of triggering an even worse case of the black ass with her. It’s a hell of a balancing ack.
December 17th, 2003 at 12:09 pm
I’ve enjoyed this holiday, but others in the past haven’t been so nice. Mainly, I’m a huge resister of constant repetition of a theme. I.E., there’s only so many times I can hear “Let it Snow” before I start to want to stuff sharp things in my ear.
I didn’t like It’s a Wonderful Life, though…
January 8th, 2004 at 8:36 pm
Amen to that sister. I find personally that when I don’t treat my depression with alcohol the holiday seem to go a whole lot better.
Of course spending time with my family is enough to make anyone want to drink….